Fearing your own words

I'm about to say something that may sound a little crazy, but if you're a writer reading this I'm sure you'll be able to relate to every word.

When I'm writing my head is usually filled by many voices pushing me in different directions, arguing with themselves on where I should take my WIP (Work- In- Progress). Even when I'm not writing I'm usually arguing with the voices or thinking about a million little things at once. Sounds crazy right? Stay with me I have a point to what I'm saying I promise.

Last month all the voices stopped.

I'd stare at my computer for hours trying to force the voices to make an appearance, but they were just--gone. It's like they packed up and left overnight. I couldn't write anything. No matter what I did the ideas weren't flowing.

This past weekend I had the opportunity to take a Query Workshop with YA author Mindy McGinnis. Even though I'm not ready for the Query process it was a rare chance that I couldn't pass up and I'm so glad I went. It was great to be surrounded by other people who take their writing as seriously as I do and to meet others who are in various stages of their stories.

After the presentation I was able to speak to Mindy about her own writing fears and after that conversation as I was walking back to my car something just clicked. The voices didn't stop speaking to me, I let fear smother them. The moment I admitted to myself why I couldn't write, I allowed the voices to break through the fear.

I'm getting back to my original concept and I can say the voices in my head are helping me along the way :)

So the moral of this long story is it's okay to be afraid, but don't let it smother your creativity.

Also if you haven't read it yet, you should read Not a Drop to Drink. It's a great book and I love Mindy's world building and character development.

Have you ever let fear control you in any way?

Until next time, I hope you find joy in your writing!